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This year I turned 35. I know that isn’t really old. In fact, most of my 30′s have been the best years of my life were I was starting to feel pretty comfortable in my own skin. But then I turned 35 and, unexpectedly, I started looking pretty critically at myself. I started asking the hard questions like are you really happy and do you feel good about where you are in life? I guess I have fallen into some ruts and they no longer serve me. I haven’t done a very good job of taking care of myself either and I’m starting to feel it.

This year I became more aware of the little body aches and pains and how tired I always feel. I have noticed that I have lost interest in a lot of my hobbies that used to fuel me and my creativity. As a matter of fact, I haven’t felt very creative at all. I find I’m spending more time sitting and reading about doing rather than actually doing myself. I’m stuck.

For all of these reasons, I am declaring 2010 a year of playing and discovery. Yep, I’m going back to the playground. I’m going to have fun. I’m going to read books that I may have never picked up. I’m going to try things I may not have an interest in. I’m going to listen to the other side a little more.

I’m going to exercise my body and mind and not judge whether it was a success or failure. I’m going to play around with the kind of foods I eat and actually enjoy eating rather than counting calories or feeling guilty when I choose something that is less than perfect. I’m flirting with the idea of a vegan diet and seeing how I feel.

I’m ready for a challenge. I’m ready to stretch and grow. I’m ready to dive into a new year. 2009 had some wonderful high points and I’m grateful for them but I think I’m ready to mix things up a bit. I’m looking forward to 2010. I think we are going to do great things together.

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